[07.18.08]

Days have passed, and right now. I think I'm going through a state of depression.
Suicidal thoughts are going through my head, but don't worry. I'll be fine.

Denver. Ugh! What the heck is wrong with him?
There is just to much to say. I'm in love with him...and he doesn't care AT ALL.
There is just so much to say about him that's making me sad right now, but it's to much to type out. But today he came up to me, and I thought he was going to talk to me...but he just asked my phone number.
Well at least he cared. Since he got his cell phone back.
):
But there's a festival going on right now in my town, and grrrrrrr.....hes with with a whole bunch of chicks...
My friend told me. Ugh. That's great huh? And with my ex jack. wow. Whatever.
We won't get back together. As much as I want to.

Last night I sat at the festival for 2 hours alone cause my friend ditched me. Denver didn't look at me ONCE.
he walked by a couple times, but not once. And that hurts sooo bad. If you don't know, but it hurts!

How am I still living when some guy has my heart?
): ugh.

Peace dood's. Pray to StarClan that I feel better.


Thorny's Choice Song- Slipped Away, Avril Lavigne

[07.01.08]

Well...I did it. I broke up with my boyfriend. After all this time. And wow. Denver doesn't like me like that anymore.
So now I have no one. I told Jack I still wanted to be friends, but he was being such a MOUSEBRAIN today and I freaked out on him.
Denver likes my best friend Kara, who already have a boyfriend, and besides that...she would NEVER go out with the person I love. Wow. I'm so upset. I've never been so upset! Why are guys like this? Don't they see that girls are fragile? Espicially me...I fell in love with Denver in less then a week, but I had already liked him LOTS before we were boyfriend/girlfriend.
Wow. So I found this quote that is perfect for me:

"And tomorrow if your still just a friend, then I'll stay up till 11:11 again."

I have marching band all this week. Clarinet...woo. Our dancing song for this year is Paint it Black. I like that song.
Hmm...I'm a bad girl. I got drunk on Saturday. x3. It was my friends graduation party. x3.
I got my ears repierced today. It hurt, cause the lady did it wrong and had to do my one ear AGAIN.TALK ABOUT OUCH!
xD.
Hmm...well I guess that's all then. I really dont have anything to say lately. I haven't been doing anything interesting.
Ugh...
Thornys Choice Song:
Come on Get Higher-Matt Nathanson