[08.05.08]

Oh Em Gee! I hate my life.
I know officially I'm going through a state of depression. I gotta be.
I don't sleep.
I can't eat.
I can't even cry anymore.

I just don't feel like typing it all out. But Omg. My life is so screwed up right now.
I wish I could go back in time, and keep myself from meeting Denver...I'm in love with him. I can't belive this. He doesn't care. All he does is play around with, and thinks I'm creepy for it.
And worst of all, he likes my BEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD kara.
What the heck...
I'm sorry. That's makes no sense.
Kara and me are both going through the same stuff. She's in love iwht someone to, and they don't seem to care.
Ugh. And now this guy swears to me he likes me, but I can't believe him because he kids around with that stuff a lot.
I mean.
Kara says I'm lucky, cause at least denver and me are friends and still talk practically everyday.
Well. I wish we didn't. It kills me inside seeing him, and talking to him. His voice makes me fall in love EVEN more.
I just don't know what to do. No one can give me good advice.
I have no idea what to do.
I really don't.
I just wish I could be hit by a car, or get amnesia, or something.
I sound like an emo freak. But I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!
He's my everything
And I'm his nothing.

He really does mean everything to me.
I tattooed his name on myself.
But no worries, it'll come off in time.
It was just pen ink.
But Omg. Everytime I turn on the radio, a sad song comes on, and it just makes me wanna die cause these songs, are just like. UGH!

Besides that, I'm trying to keep up with the site when I'm this depressed. But it's fine. It somewhat relaxes me. Helps me get away from the real world.
But the fair is in 2 days. JUST WHAT I NEED!
Yesssss!
The fair will help me loads with my stress.
I love the fair so much. Oh em gee. It's so fun. I'm so glad. One problem...
I'll be hanging out with Denver also.

Hangout list;
Kara, Ashley, Paige, Nikki, Bre, Sarah, Colton, Aaron, Denver, Jojo, Miranda, and I'm sure a few others.
That's all I have for now.
The people I'll be with everyday are
Kara, Ashlye, Paige, and Denver.
Fer sure..Not sure if anyone else is going everyday.
The fair is only 4 days! =O
Oh well
It's still fun. Denver told me he'd go on rides with him.
I'm actaully making him. I gotta get him to like me somehow.
But that's all people.
Peace!

Choice Song;
I have about 20 songs that I LOVE RIGHT NOW.
But I'm guessing I'll choose...
Keep Bleeding Love-Leona Lewis